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I miss you …

…. Am back!!! Wanna share my pointlesspoint of view haha … been too busy with work, with my hectic life and most of all with my super beleaguered love life, hahaha … haaaaaay what an experience…I had this “toma” session with my so called “friend “– yah he is a friend … and during our fussy conversation we ended up asking ourselves “can a guy and a girl be just friends”

·Though something intimate happened to them?

·Though bought of them – is in a relationship – during that intimate moment?

Well, I don’t want to go into details, let’s just stick to that particular issue …

Yah… possible di ba? So why waste yahself thinking and asking na why is that thing happened? What happened to us? Is that for a night only? Will it happen again? Is it me who kick off that moment to happen? Can we stand each other kapag nagkita ulit kami? Haha … what was he thinking at that time? What was he thinking about me? Tsk tsk .. Ending up….. Insufficient sleep, edgy @ work , in short .. PARANOID hahaha!

If both of you wanted that friendship to last – no fuss, no need pa na balikan ang nangyari – it happened already – both of you go beyond the limitation of the“so called- friendship”

Pertaining to the thing na both of you is in a relationship during that moment – well, both of you shared na the pleasure – wag na kaung ma guilty na “ halllllerrrrrr major looser !!! If it happened again – iba nang usapan pa un … hahaha!!! Both of you ought to have a conformity regarding the situation … it is possible as in possible… I strongly believe that it is possible, no strings attached, love is there but not intimate love, friendship – it’s the best, both can share diff world, diff points of view … hell to what other people may say - do what both of you want to, do what you think is right – without twinge with each other’s feeling ….

But what if, just what if … the girl fall in love with the guy? “Hanging question? “The girl must be crazy though (*wink) - move on … friendship and love can’t be shared at the same time – and that’s my point of view – based on experience.. Given the fact na friendship is the best foundation of love – but hell, you can’t bring friendship back after the love has gone – believe me! Don’t adhere on the saying na “lovers cant still be friends after all”– well that is stupidity …

Yah … it may perhaps, possible but you cannot bring back the same friendship that you had before, you will be hurt … and you will end up in crying, feeling jealous – knowing that your ex- guy is now dating… ohhh com’n move on … that thing is sooo old school – slap on yah face!!!

Be optimistic – make yahself busy, spoil yahself into something you haven’t done before, go to the spa, unwind, go out with friends – mingle with other guy.. and say to yah self *am bettyfull* hahaha! Adik!!!

Another point, speaking of mingling with other guy – why on this earth, ang mga lalaking ito walang alam sabihin kundi “ei hottie- wanna share moment with me? Hahaha fuck! - that deserve a big slap on the face… darn so absurd! Parang foundation nila is to get laid first and rest will follow.. Nyack ! helleeeeerrrrr – unless gwapo ka pede na rin hahaha!!!No no no- don’t do that, super pokpokcatious naman and arrive mo nun gurl – preserve yah self – di ka naman siguro nymphomaniac noh… and who knows someday… you will be in that big add posted @ edsa – then some one will say – shit! I used to fuck that girl – hahaha ang panget diba? Unless super landi ka! -keber…

“ to muh so called friend – hehe! Rock – on ! Here’s a line for you … “you do something to me, that I cant explain .. so would I be out of line if I said … that I miss you!

Gotta go for now…. rock on!!! Peaceout …

Weeee i havent updated my blog hahaha!!! (As if naman am a blog addict talaga noh? corz not!!!)

This morning is quite peaceful naman… alone, listening to can’t fight this feeling anymore ng journey… too oldschool though, but if you listen to it… u’ll definitely love the lyrics of the song hehehe - bitterness!!!

What is new wit me nga ba?

One passionate month na pala …. I love it ! Super !

Am super enjoying everything ….

… taking one step at a time
…

not rushing everything, my time will come HAHA!
…

can I just express this in a song???

ENJOY ….



swept away

I was swept away

No one in the world but you and I

Gotta find a way to make you feel the way that I do
I was swept away

Without a warning
Like night when the morning begins the day
I was swept away

And so it begins
This journey of love
The summer wind carries us to places all our own

The words of a look
The language of touch
The way that you want me means so much

And I never wanted anything more than to love you



can’t fight this feeling anymore

I can’t fight this feeling any longer

And yet I’m still afraid to let it flow

What started out as friendship, has grown stronger
I only wish I had the strength to let it show
……

Cause I can’t fight this feeling anymore
I’ve forgotten what I started fighting for

And if I have to crawl upon the floor
Come crashing through your door
Baby,
I can’t fight this feeling anymore


You to me are everything ….
……

Oh, you to me are everything
The sweetest song that I could sing
Oh, baby, oh, baby

….
So now you’ve got the best of me

Come on and take the rest of me
Oh, baby
…..

Whirl wind….

No one can understand ….

So enigmatic …

So exhilarating, when am with @$@#$&)#  ….

Fuck to all insecure – biatch!

Mind yah own business – and don’t mess wit mine

I have !*&*(&$_! Now – your time has gone by hehehe …

no more bitterness

*** peace yah all ***

So I won’t hesitate no more, no more / It cannot wait I’m
sure

There’s no need to complicate/ our time is short/ this is
our fate, I’m yours….

One smoggy night, fuck naman o, hindi si jae to, napaka odd
isipin na ako nga toh hehehe (shut up jae- ano ba!) here it goes
*@)*#(@&$_978= h:L * that’s it – that super inquisitive *VIY:ROIR* caught
my attention.. hala ano yan!!! Bawal yan sa batas ng fubu world.. baka later ill be singing caught in the arms of another haha!!! bad
cheetah.. I am fighting this so eerie sentiments
of mine (which is not me – not so so me) … (then fuck, then tell me what is
wrong???) eh ano nga ba? Wala naman talaga paranoid ka lang jae!!!

Don’t be too harsh $&a*da%^( – sarap isigaw grrrrrrrr !!!
KUPAL – just wait

My boo – grumpy!!! Wait
ka na lang din

(ayan nawala na ko sa emotions ko * hahaha – panahon nga
naman!!) Kung kelan almost perfect na, may isang super cool na nilalang na
putik harhar super flipped-out, super jittery, super confused pa na lilitaw –
nakam phowta talaga oh!!!! – whooopaw !!! Super confused @@$$???? Ano ba kasi?
Nagpapaka super insensitive na nga ako – makahalata naman hehe!!! - Come a
little closer

Flicker in flight

We’ll have about an inch space

But I’m here I can breathe in

What you breathe out

 

Let me know if I’m doing this right

Let me know if my grip’s too tight

Let me know if I can stay all of my life

Let me know if dreams can come true

Let me know if this one’s yours too

 

‘Cause I see it

And I feel it

Right here

And I feel you right here –

NAKAM PHOWATA STOP THAT HAHA!!!!  SOOOO WOUNDED !!!!

(Kung may nakakabasa
lang nito, hindi  rin nya to
maiintindihan- kasi kahit ako di ko rin alam san pupunta tong ginagawa ko!!! Hehehe
ka kulleeeeeeet mo jae!!!! )

Ill update na lang kapag clear na ang super adventourous and
precious kong life haha!!! …

I certainly take pleasure in my pagiging super kuleeeeeeet !!!! 

  

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Finally, I’ve got the chance to update my blog – as in!!! Despite
of my petics schedule (lolz). Finally,
nandito na ko sa cebu, at first, kala ko sobrang hirap kasi naman I don’t even know how to
speak bisaya kaya!!! gamay lang ang alam
ko haha!!! Im presently renting a space with my wacky crazy but wickedly
alluring ladies.

Melai - the medical
transcriptionist student , she’s tagalong also kaya di mashado mahirap makipag
chikahan hehe, this lady is so funny, so bait and so accommodating naman (in
fainess melai hehe) so weird matulog – lakas pa maghilik haha!!! She’s always
the victim of her so called mommy jonah wafa – na walang ginawa kundi mag
picture kapag natutulog si melai na naka nganga so funny hehehe!!! She is also
the next kim chui hahaha!!!

Next is
jonah wafah , the super kuleeeet care giver student, with this cute baby boy natnat… super kuleet,
no dull moments with her, Bangka yan sa tawanan, walang tigil ang bibig sa mga
kwento at jokes nya, super sa pagkakuleeeet, she loves to sing , loves to dance
and love guys sooo much hehehe (joke jons!!!) ang daming syota pero in fairness
mga bigtime naman (till now wala pa din kaming pizza haha)!

 

Next stop, the cpa
aka di ko magets girl jennylou.. the cutest gurl, at first sobrang tahimik
walng ginagawa kundi magbasa, then later super daldal na din… she suppppperrrrr
love anime as in kinikilig yan pag nanood ng manga’ series. Cool yan kumanta –
pang anime ang boses at memorize every words ng anime songs – girl that is
soooo weird hehe! Peace men!!! Later on I discovered dancer din pala ang lola
hehe, anak nya si bedecks (aso yan) she super love dogs. Mahilig din yan mg
overtime hehe kaya nga lagi kami may food pag sweldo na hehe we love you for
that jen …. Pero ang kuleet kausap nito – kelangan ata galling ka pa sa mental
bago makagets ng sasabihin kelangan lagi literal hehe but she is soooo funny
kapag ganun.. her favorite tagline “ unsa? Di ko maka gets and the famous “wag
na nga lang” hahaha!!!

Then came this
chick yenyen… kulit din yan nursing reviewer
mag tatake na kasi ng exam she also from bohol – anak ng pulis hehe pero super
spoiled sa tatay, we use to tukso her boy kasi naman boyish lagi but this gurl
kick ass, shes got the body and contagious smile… nakz!!!  May weird eating habits yan pero masarap naman
ang trip nya! Boyish pero ang daming syota sa panaginip nyahehehe… pero ang
pinaka cool na bf nyan si chubbyron (chubby chicharon hehehe) peace tol!!! Minsan
likot matulog sa taas ko kasi yan pero kahit ganun wala pa din ako pake kasi
nakakatulog naman ako haha (talaw tulog eh) ano pa ba??? Ahhh si lovers yan… tsaka si mr M hehehe….

Lastly si ate arls – our
suppeeeer cool na mamas an.. . mahilig sa kikay stuff, minsan lang may sapot “bisaya
word for topak” hehehe… so accommodating
and treated us na parang mga anak na nya.. She’s cool, loves to sing also…

haaaayz I’ve been here
for almost 3 months and now I love this gurls na kukuleeeet nila kasi parang
ako haha!!!  We all share each others
laughter kapag gabi na after work, class, or after date hehe… our common
denominator??? MYX and terrified kuleeet trip… and most definitely foooooood…

 

 

I would  definitely treasure the happenings we had
during my stay here in cebu… its worth it as in!!!

Thank you gurls for making me at home!!!!